[She watches his reaction, her own fingers drawing into her palms resting on her thighs. Kaname's tone in turn isn't as even as she'd like, not in reply to this.]

I was prepared for that, if it happened. [The worse outcome.] We both were. But this is what I do back home. This is how it works to make sure people are safe, and I can't draw back from that here. I explained it then: if my life is in danger, my voice is more effective.

[Her shoulders slump, and she's not sure how to explain anything else.]

I would do it all again if I had to. I can't let him go like that again.