[His words have her brows drawing together in concern. Despite his attempt at assurances, Kaname can't help but feel somewhat responsible for this even if she logically knows it's out of her control.
She nods, hands on her knees.]
Do you want to talk about any of it? [She can feel her own hesitance in asking. Prompto's had problems in the past, but he's always come to talk with her about them.]
[That's never his reply when she asks if he wants to talk. It's a lie to say it doesn't sting a little, but she nods regardless before adding a verbal reply since he's staring at the floor.]
All right. [It's really all she can say in regards to that, but not all she wants to say.]
Prompto... I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Messer. I couldn't.
Yeah. No. I mean, I get it. I get why he would want to keep that whole ... thing ... a secret. But... It could have turned out a lot worse than it did. And you had to put yourself in danger to stop it.
[As he finishes off his statement, his voice rises - not yelling, but definitely upset. Fists clench and unclench.]
[She watches his reaction, her own fingers drawing into her palms resting on her thighs. Kaname's tone in turn isn't as even as she'd like, not in reply to this.]
I was prepared for that, if it happened. [The worse outcome.] We both were. But this is what I do back home. This is how it works to make sure people are safe, and I can't draw back from that here. I explained it then: if my life is in danger, my voice is more effective.
[Her shoulders slump, and she's not sure how to explain anything else.]
I would do it all again if I had to. I can't let him go like that again.
[He nods, even as he huffs. He knows what her job entailed, and what her voice can do.]
I wasn't prepared. I knew there was a chance I'd have to shoot something out there. I didn't think it would be one of us.
[He can rationalize it in his head all day, but there was still a pang of... betrayal? That wasn't quite it. But close enough. And jealousy too. There was that. There was no overlooking how well Kaname and Messer worked together.]
Yeah. I know.
[It wasn't fair, and a part of him knew that. If it were Noctis, he wouldn't hesitate to put himself in harm's way. This shouldn't be any different.]
[The mention of him not being prepared for that hits her, and she knows she made a mistake there. Kaname knows she should apologize, but... what would she be apologizing for? For having him do what needed to be done to save Messer? Or for still involving him after he agreed to stay. Nether of those would be sincere, and she doesn't want to lie.]
I'm sorry we ended up in that situation. [This much is true.] But he'd thank you for what you did, given the chance.
[Prompto's tone almost feels like a slap, and Kaname can't keep the hurt out of her voice.]
[His words are a surprise, one she can't immediately reply to. So she sits there for a moment actually taken aback by his dismissal. It's a punch to the gut if there ever was one.
Kaname stands slowly and ducks her head, hoping he won't see her raise her hand and quickly wipe her eye with the heel of it.]
I think you're right. [There's no hiding the hurt now. She moves towards the door, brushing past him before her tears start to fall.]
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She nods, hands on her knees.]
Do you want to talk about any of it? [She can feel her own hesitance in asking. Prompto's had problems in the past, but he's always come to talk with her about them.]
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I think ... I need to deal with this one on my own.
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All right. [It's really all she can say in regards to that, but not all she wants to say.]
Prompto... I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Messer. I couldn't.
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Yeah. No. I mean, I get it. I get why he would want to keep that whole ... thing ... a secret. But... It could have turned out a lot worse than it did. And you had to put yourself in danger to stop it.
[As he finishes off his statement, his voice rises - not yelling, but definitely upset. Fists clench and unclench.]
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I was prepared for that, if it happened. [The worse outcome.] We both were. But this is what I do back home. This is how it works to make sure people are safe, and I can't draw back from that here. I explained it then: if my life is in danger, my voice is more effective.
[Her shoulders slump, and she's not sure how to explain anything else.]
I would do it all again if I had to. I can't let him go like that again.
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I wasn't prepared. I knew there was a chance I'd have to shoot something out there. I didn't think it would be one of us.
[He can rationalize it in his head all day, but there was still a pang of... betrayal? That wasn't quite it. But close enough. And jealousy too. There was that. There was no overlooking how well Kaname and Messer worked together.]
Yeah. I know.
[It wasn't fair, and a part of him knew that. If it were Noctis, he wouldn't hesitate to put himself in harm's way. This shouldn't be any different.]
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I'm sorry we ended up in that situation. [This much is true.] But he'd thank you for what you did, given the chance.
[Prompto's tone almost feels like a slap, and Kaname can't keep the hurt out of her voice.]
Then why are you upset with me?
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I'm sorry. Y-you should go.
[He steps quickly to the door and pulls it open for her.]
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Kaname stands slowly and ducks her head, hoping he won't see her raise her hand and quickly wipe her eye with the heel of it.]
I think you're right. [There's no hiding the hurt now. She moves towards the door, brushing past him before her tears start to fall.]